I had to talk myself out of bed again this morning. However, this time what got me up and going was the prospect of going further than last time...actually taking the long way around. See, a couple months ago I scouted a route in my car that is pretty close to the 5k/3.1 mi mark, with time for walking warm-up and cool-down added. And it makes a complete circle, which is key for me. So today, laying in bed as the alarm went off at 5 am, I was trying to justify laying there until 6 am and then going. Which really means I was trying to talk myself out of going. But what is interesting to me is that instead of promising myself a shorter run, I thought instead about "what if."
What if I took the long way? What if I could make it, all running? What if I had to walk part? What if.... and that got me up and out of bed. See, I have been really worried. Ever since I came back from Costa Rica I have had stomach issues...just general uneasiness, but it's sporadic and enough to sap me of energy and leave me unable to do much for a day. And I think I had it in my head that running exacerbates it, or triggers it. But I have also been really worried that I would not be able to do the entire 5k I have been working so hard towards.
But I got up and out of bed. And I went the "long" way. (Long for me, anyway.) And although there were not one, but two, uphill sections, and a long stretch that can sometimes make me feel like I am standing still, I did it. I ran the entire way without walking it. 2.95 miles in total. I am so happy and proud of myself that I stuck it out. For the first time I think I will actually, really truly, be able to complete the entire 5k. (I just have to figure out how to get the warm-up walk in somehow.) I can see myself finishing. I am turtle slow; today my average pace was 15:56 minutes per mile. I mean, some people walk faster than I run. I may well be the dead last finisher, last even after the kids who do The Color Run. But finish I will. I may be the sweatiest beast on the course. But finish I will. Sweet. I got this. WOO HOO!
What if I took the long way? What if I could make it, all running? What if I had to walk part? What if.... and that got me up and out of bed. See, I have been really worried. Ever since I came back from Costa Rica I have had stomach issues...just general uneasiness, but it's sporadic and enough to sap me of energy and leave me unable to do much for a day. And I think I had it in my head that running exacerbates it, or triggers it. But I have also been really worried that I would not be able to do the entire 5k I have been working so hard towards.
But I got up and out of bed. And I went the "long" way. (Long for me, anyway.) And although there were not one, but two, uphill sections, and a long stretch that can sometimes make me feel like I am standing still, I did it. I ran the entire way without walking it. 2.95 miles in total. I am so happy and proud of myself that I stuck it out. For the first time I think I will actually, really truly, be able to complete the entire 5k. (I just have to figure out how to get the warm-up walk in somehow.) I can see myself finishing. I am turtle slow; today my average pace was 15:56 minutes per mile. I mean, some people walk faster than I run. I may well be the dead last finisher, last even after the kids who do The Color Run. But finish I will. I may be the sweatiest beast on the course. But finish I will. Sweet. I got this. WOO HOO!
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